:: best magic 8 ball coffee mug answer EVER ::

was just playing with the magic coffee mug 8 ball at www.magiccoffeemug.com, and got an absolute CRACKER of an answer, ahahahaha!!!

..the song of the week is Bubbly ^-^

So I can't get this song out of my head - "Bubbly" by Colbie Caillat..

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feeling like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holding me tight..

Don't know why, but the past week I've just been listening to a whole heap of mandarin/taiwanese songs (despite being completely clueless when it comes to the language).

Two groups I've discovered I like are Deep White (深白色2人组) and Cherry Boom (櫻桃幫), both of which have absolutely brilliant songs.

不對也要愛

根本沒有什麼好不好
你又不是我　怎麼會知道
反正他的聲音他的臉
不可思議　讓我瘋掉

全世界就饒了我們好不好
門關上外面風太吵
緊緊擁抱代替了祈禱
只要我問心無愧

就算不對　也要愛
就算想哭　也不分開
就算不睡　也要愛
怕明天不會來

愛情沒有條件好不好
不哭不笑誰也活不了
偏偏只有一個人讓我心跳
我愛我的　妨礙了誰

就算不對　也要愛
就算想哭　也不分開
就算不睡　也要愛
我幸福給你看

不管時間不管地點
化成了灰　我也不會變

就算不對　也要愛
就算想哭　也不分開
就算不睡　也要愛
怕明天不會來

別把我放開

I don't know if the translation I read was fully correct, but I like it.

Kiiiiiiiiwiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!1!

^-^ thank you for worrying about me. but i'm fine, seriously. after i'm done venting, i'm VERY easily cheered up again.

am especially cheered after seeing this most adorable of animations..

THIS is why i shouldn't be allowed to think.

"and oh, what a lonely girl, trying to make her way in this mixed-up, messed-up world.."
- Sandi Thom

what do you do when you can't make heads or tails of what you want..?

i thought i was so comfortable with my singleness, fine with being on my own. met up with some old friends to have dinner a couple of months ago, to catch up, find out how things were with everyone. even when someone asked "can my boyfriend come along?", i wasn't fazed - i'd been hearing her rave on about him for so long, i wanted to meet the amazing guy who had been lucky enough to catch her. and then it turned out that my other friend had recently gotten herself a wonderful guy as well, so of course we couldn't leave him out.

everything was going well when i met up with them all - both boys were definitely keepers, they made my friends so happy that i couldn't help but feel happy for them, that they'd found these lovely guys who obviously adored them and could bring such smiles to their faces, it made ME smile just to see them.

so there we were, sitting at a restaurant, trading stories and gabbing on about anything and everything, when each couple suddenly linked hands and just grinned at each other across the table.

oh, man. something in my heart just went SNAP.

and i was floored, because pain was totally the last thing i expected to feel.

ever.

while they froze time and gazed into each others' eyes and giggled mushy somethings, i looked around for something else to look at, ANYTHING, willing myself NOT TO LOOK DOWN AT MY SHOES, quietly trying not to let on that i was in any way affected.

i'd never had to do that before. even with other friends who have been so sweet and cuddly and coupley with their boys while they were around me.

this time was a complete bolt out of the blue.

and because it hurt, i wondered if that meant i wasn't immune after all, if some part of me that had never bothered to pipe up before actually really wanted the kind of thing that my friends had.

i drove home, pondering why it was that i wanted to cry.

it happened again more recently, these stupid, stupid feelings that unexpectedly show up to cut me to ribbons.

when someone you're already pretty damn SURE you have no genuine, more-than-passing-shallow interest in cancels on you last-minute (even though you were half-expecting they'd bollocks it up and have to bail on you AS USUAL), to your surprise, it bloody hurts.

what. the. FCK.

after that, i remembered precisely why it was that i was so determined to not get caught up in this whole mess, why it was that i stubbornly declared that my laptop computer would be my boyfriend and i didn't need any feelings and i CERTAINLY didn't need any stupid human males.

i'm still trying to figure out what it is that i want, and whether i actually do want anything at all. is it genuine emotion that frisbee-attacks me from time to time, or is it just more of the sharp, unbalanced chemical ups and downs that spike in my head..?

..plerk.

just tripped over in the office bathroom, because my shoe caught itself on a big block of NOTHING. -_-"